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Thursday, January 24, 2013

Voices: Beautiful Dreams, Scenes, and Sounds




Get your handkerchiefs and tissues ready. If you are not moved by the words of this student then you are far more hard-hearted than you should be. Jupar’s narrative of her journey in life could be the beginning of a great film. But don’t believe me, just read her words and see. And tune back in a few years from now. The major motion picture of her life might just be hitting the Cineplex near you.

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From the Prairie to the U.S.

If someone asks me what is the one thing that I am most proud of, I would say, being a Kazakh. Kazakh is not really a famous nation here in the U.S. There are always people asking me what I am:  “Kazakh" is generally used to refer to people of ethnic Kazakh descent, including those living in Kazakhstan, China, Afghanistan, Turkey, Uzbekistan and other neighboring countries. The name “Kazakh” came from the popular Kazakh legend of a white goose that turned into a princess and gave birth to the first Kazakh. Kazakh people are believed to be good at dancing and singing. Many of us are also skilled in the performance of Kazakh traditional instruments:  the dombra and kobyz. Kazakh people have always kept their nomadic pastoral lifestyle. Moving to new Prairies all the time. Kazakhs kept an epic tradition of an oral nation. 



The nation, which amalgamated nomadic tribes of various Kazakh origins, managed to preserve the distant memory of the original founding clans. It is important for us to know our genealogical tree for no less than seven generations back and it is still common for Kazakh people to ask which tribe they belong to when they meet each other. Nowadays, however, it is more of a tradition than a necessity. Many Kazakhs in China are not fluent in Mandarin. Instead of speaking Chinese, they choose to speak the Kazakh language. The Kazakh nation has beautiful poems and songs and all of these things brought it a great history and set of traditions.





The family of my grandpa was a really typical family on a prairie where all Kazakh people lived together. They didn’t have electricity in that time and all my grandpa did in his childhood was helping the livestock with grazing. Later, when he was a teenager, the prairie established its very first primary school. The school was quite simple and took place in was in a yurt. During the day, it was a school and during the night it turned back into someone’s home. My grandpa was a really hard-working student and was always the top one among all of the students. So the mother of my grandpa decided to send him to the nearest town to go to a real middle school. It was then the history of my grandpa’s life changed. He studied even harder after he attended the middle school and participated in the College Entrance Examination. He did such a great job that he became the first college student in that tiny town. As a result of his academic success, he said goodbye to the great prairie and started a brand new life. He majored in Law; after he graduated, he became the President of the Court in the city where my mom was born and later I was born.



All of these changes would never have happened without his desire to get an education. We still go back to the prairie sometimes. We ride horses, sleep in the yurts, help with grazing, and eat the most natural food. There is always this strong feeling of belonging. We belong to the prairies.



My grandpa believed that the only way to change one’s life was by getting higher education so he was really strict with all of his children and the fact that all of his children went to college and all get really good jobs approved that he was right. So education had always been a topic that he was always discussing with my mom.

And now, my mom followed the road that my grandpa first travelled and decided to send me abroad to study. I know it was not an easy decision. Because for Kazakh people one of the most important traditions is to live together with all of the family’s children and offspring. My grandma was really against this decision at first, and was tried to stop me. I was under great pressure when I was applying for schools here in U.S. Half of the family said no and half them were supportive.



The pressure not only came from them but also from me myself. I didn’t know how this completely new world was going to be and how should I start it. I remember one time when we were having a big family dinner together and my parents started talking about this topic again. All of a sudden my grandpa said, “Somebody has to take this step and I believe Jupar is the best”. I was really surprised when I heard this. Right after that dinner I made up my mind and started studying really hard and getting ready for all of the tests. I had a tough time studying for TOEFL and SAT. We didn’t have any international schools in my city and all I did was just teach myself. My current university in the US was my dream school. I didn’t expect it to accept me because I didn’t have really high SAT scores as all other Chinese students did. But I was so lucky that at that time I was looked at as more than just scores and as a typical Chinese applicant. But I also know that I deserved it if hard work and determination mean anything.

Jupar with her family

My greatest motivation to study at that time was this dream in which I would take my grandpa to visit America one day. I would take him to the Washington, D.C. to see the great capital. I would take him to see the beautiful beaches in Miami.  And I would take him to see fabulous New York City. But now, these places will only remain a dream for him. My grandpa passed away before this could happen. But he said he was so happy to see me grow up, and, more importantly, to have finally accomplished my dream which had also always been his dream too. In the end, his dream of education is the one we shared and the one that made him proud of me.

Since coming to university in the US, I have changed so much that I can’t even believe it myself sometimes. I have become more outgoing, more confident, and more determined. I have learned so much from amazing professors and my great friends. I gained not only from classes and teachers, but also from experiences that I could never learn from a book. Now my grandpa has become a greater motivation than ever before. He and I accomplished the road from the prairie to the U.S. together. And now, although I still have a long way to go, our journey has already taken me places that will prepare me to contribute significantly to my family, my culture, and my beloved country.


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What used to be called the American Dream has now gone global. A family from modest means from a place few in the US have heard of, has come to partake I the opportunities to move ahead in life in the way that does not happen much in the US itself anymore. Most selective schools in the US have great students, but few of them come from modest means. Only those schools with huge endowments and a commitment to educational access for many can afford to provide aid even to US citizens. The result is a widening chasm between those who can afford a transformative education and those who cannot. Luckily, the advent of free on-line education and innovators like Salman Khan and others, those who cannot afford to travel to schools or are not willing to go into triple digit debt for the privilege can offer some useful alternatives.



Jupar’s journey also underscores another important issue in education. All too often I hear administrators and educators in schools and colleges refer to Chinese students as if they consisted of monolithic line of copies on a conveyor belt. Yesterday’s entry from another student from China, who is majoring in philosophy and comes from one of the best schools in China, represents a very different journey to the US. And yet people group students from China into a simple data point on a profile and are under pressure not too enroll too many of them. To categorize students who come from a nation with over a billion people, it strikes me as willful blindness on the part of some to focus on a single number (the number of Chinese students enrolled) instead of taking the time to see that the voices of each of these students will add significant diversity to any campus in the world. The focus on percentages and groups rather than individuals sounds like what Americans used to critique other countries of doing. Back then it was said this treatment went against the American grain. I wonder what happened to the American narrative of promoting the dreams of people like Jupar here in our own country.

I want to thank Jupar for taking the time to craft this essay. I am lucky enough to have watched her grow during this part of her journey. Spending time with students like her change my life and views. I hope she might have been able to do the same for you. It speaks volumes that Jupar has described the photograph she shares of her family as the 'most precious photo" she has in the world.



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